Kawaii Definition

Hello everyone!

A lot of time has passed and today I'll talk about what does Kawaii mean to me!

It's quite personal so I hope you forgive me if I get a bit dramatic here and there ;;

Here we go!

Warning: Also some really old pictures of me during puberty days hahaha!

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Years back there was a time I wanted to be really who I wanted to be.

I wanted to get in Steampunk/Lolita/Sporty/Chic styles so much but I lacked the confidence.

I felt I couldn't bring it out in me.

Then, I started following some cute style artwork. Mostly for myself because I found myself spending hours and hours looking through the cute items and just smiling to myself. I loved it and I wanted to be able to be a part of it. I tried making art like that.

When I see people wearing this style, it makes me want to be able to do that. I was jealous of people who can pull off the style. I was always self conscious but I wanted to express myself so badly.

I felt happy just looking at it but it never crossed my mind to internalize it.

I thought,

"I couldn't pull off such a thing"

"I'm not cute, how can anyone find me attractive?"

"People already find me weird as it is.."